I keep on remembering how my life used to be like a few years ago. I felt happier back in junior hig, even freshman year in high school. idk what changed. Maybe it was growing up and realizing that life is not as nice (for a lack of a better word) than I had imagined as a child. I am happyy in a new way, but I still feel as if something is missing.
Whenever I am with Sam, i have the tendency to cry. Why? I want to be happy, like people say you are, I guess I shouldn't look at what others see as happiness, cause it is never the same for 2 people, and just focus on finding what makes me happy, I want to make Sam as happy as I feel on certain days.
I have this feeling of getting rid of all the old things from my past that do nothing to help in the present. I'm going to clean my house of useless stuff, and either give it away, sell it, or throw it away. I just want to help my family to get their things together and comtinue to grow as individuals. I think that the ones that need the most help are: Jenny, John and dad. They all have their own problems, I'm not saying that mom and I don't, it just seems like they need the most help in dealing with them. It is as if they haven't realized they have them, or are too angry and proud to do anything about them.
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Getting rid of old things is a good idea, but don't get rid of everything. sometimes it's nice to remember even the bad times.
ReplyDeleteI think happiness is a fleeting emotion, and even though we find people and things that make us happy, they can't always make us happy. We just need to hold on to them and help them as well. I don't think the goal in life should necessarily be happiness, but more self-fulfillment. Although being happy is nice.